Me achei no google

"I unintentionally push people I care about away when they get too close. I’m afraid of disappointments and hurt… I set up unbelievably high expectations for others and I don’t even voice them. And of course, they never meet my expectations because I never tell them what they are! And then I beat myself up for it. The real, driving factor behind why I push those I love away is because I desperately want validation. It’s an insecure, defense mechanism of mine—to withdraw and test people. I want them to fight for me."